“I am not bound to win, but I am bound to be true. I am not bound to succeed, but I am bound to live by the light that I have.” ~ Abraham Lincoln
An honest confession: Last year at this time, I was NOT living by the light inside. I was not being true to myself. I was in immense pain physically and emotionally. There was so much that was not going right in my life, that I had just gone on living on autopilot. I realized all this when I saw my birthday pictures the next day i.e. on the 30th of September 2014. I was shocked to see myself. I couldn’t recognize myself with all those layers. I felt like crap literally! I cried for a few nights and prayed and prayed for guidance. I needed to feel like myself again. I craved to FEEL alive again. I was helping all these people heal through counseling and healing work, while I wasn’t feeling very good myself. It didn’t feel right.
Thankfully tough, I was always surrounded by loving family, friends and soulmates. My daughter who is 8 years old now and super active told me, “Ma, come play badminton with me.”…I went and played. But I couldn’t. I ached all over…..I was a badminton champion in my school and college days. I won many inter-school and college competitions at the time. At this point I realized that I NEEDED to make a drastic positive change in my life. If its not now then it will never happen. If I cant enjoy my daughters growth with her, then what is this life really worth?!
I struggled with myself after the realization for about a month. At the end of October 2014 I decided to make drastic changes to improve my health and my life. And I haven’t looked back since.
What I did to transform myself?
- I started using the affirmation: “I am completely whole and healed.” I said it a hundred times a day literally!
- I made a small poster saying “BE TRUE TO YOURSELF” and kept it on my desk to remind me again and again to center to myself in-case I forget.
- I went on a completely vegetarian, carb free and sugar free diet. I wrote about it here.
- I started power walking, restarted yoga and added pilates to my physical training.
- I listened to one ted talk daily, come hail come storm.
- I took a Sound Healing and Angel Therapy course…..which stimulated my thinking and nurtured my soul. As part of my nature, I need mental stimulation constantly. I love learning new things. So a new course here and there keeps me happily stimulated. Helps with inner healing too.
How I transformed?
The results of all what I was doing were out in a few days of starting. Mentally and emotionally I began to feel whole again. I was still very far from my ideal pain free physical state though, but emotionally I was stronger. feeling better.
The physical transformation in terms of weight-loss took about 3 weeks to show. I had lost a whopping 13 kgs in 3 weeks…and as the weeks went by I kept dropping the excess weight. Today I have lost 24 kgs in total and I still have 10 kgs more to go to reach my ideal BMI weight.
All in all my drastic positive changes were beginning to take shape.
Now after almost 11 months of intense physical and emotional re-training I am so happy to see this transformed me. I feel like an 18 year old on steroids!! I run and play with my daughter everyday. I run, walk and play for myself everyday too 🙂 I have so much energy its mind boggling. And all this cause I stayed on my path, I stayed true to myself. I knew that life of autopilot, while happy on the outside was eating me alive on the inside. I was struggling and now I am not anymore.
“Spiritual empowerment is evidenced in our lives by our willingness to tell ourselves the truth, to listen to the truth when its told to us, and o dispense truth as lovingly as possible, when we feel compelled to talk from the heart.” ~ Christina Baldwin
We all have these moments of self realization at different points in our lives. Some of us let them pass and then keep spiraling downwards. While some of us use these realizations to learn truths about our own true nature.
Today as I share my weaknesses with you, openly and freely. I realize, that I am only able to do this because I faced my own truth. I faced my own shortcomings and did something about it. Unless we face our own truth, we will not be at peace.
The kind of peace that brings spiritual fulfillment and growth.
As I ring in my 38th Birthday right now, I am in a state of deep gratitude and peace. Gratitude for all the truths I have faced over the past year, all the people I have met, all the souls I’ve deeply connected with, all the moments that took my breath away, all the love that I was showered with, all the lessons learned and all the beauty that the Divine blessed me with. There were intense moments of love this past year that I so want to relive 🙂 but I know there will be plenty more this coming year. Cant wait!!
I am also thankful to each and every one of you! For stopping by every week, for sharing your thoughts, for reading, for your beautiful emails, for your love and for all the inspiration you have provided me with this past year.
My mission still remains: “Let no one ever come to you without leaving better and happier. Be the living expression of God’s kindness: kindness in your face, kindness in your eyes, kindness in your smile.”~ Mother Teresa
My hands are small I know, but they are only for spreading love and kindness.
I get down on my knees right now and I pray for each of you. May you be blessed with immense love and happiness always.
Because really, in the end, Only love and Kindness Matter.
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With Immense Love, Light & Gratitude,